I don’t know what I did wrong to deserve this. I try my best every single day trying to make people around me happy. You know so many of my internet best friends hate seeing people sad, so they know where I’m coming from with that. I’ve sacrificed so much of my time and love and affection for people who didn’t give it back. I’m tired of getting treated like someone that doesn’t deserve to be treated fairly. I’m at my lowest point in my life right now. I really am. You wanna know something sad? Not feeling the true feeling of happiness. I don’t get a lot and people think I do. I don’t have the family that listens to me. I don’t have good holidays because someone is always getting hurt physically and mentally. I don’t have the people around me like most of you do. I still get made fun of. I don’t get any sleep. I stay up worrying about people who don’t even think twice about me and it’s u fair for me to feel this way for sure. I suffer from bad anxiety and being bipolar and people pick on me for that. It’s hard because it’s the trauma that I’ve been through that made me this way. My blood pressure is so high from the level of stress I have. Out of no where I break down. Out of no where I have asthma attacks. I have PTSD tendencies. When people talk about being abused and drunk and fighting or suicide, it brings me back to a dark past and present no one knows about. I start to freak it inside. I will start shaking out of no where. I feel as if I’m proven that I’m worthy and amazing, I feel as if some of that will stop. Hopefully. I mean it’s not gonna totally stop. It’s gonna get better though. People don’t understand how hard it is for me to even look in the mirror everyday without breaking down because when I say I’m insecure I really am. When people take photos or videos of me when I don’t feel my best I start to get bad anxiety because I’m so insecure. When people ask me why I can’t take compliments, it’s because I’m so lost with myself and I don’t know how to take them. Everyone acts like they know me when in reality, I don’t even know me. All I have to say is I love each and every one of you. I will help you guys through anything no matter the situation.
okay from now im going to try to keep a theme cos it looked really messy sksk now, i just wanna thank everyone who kinda stood by me and supported me (mostly @sewdiesink.mp4 ) when my other account (@heartsicksadie) got deleted and helped me bring this one up. i wasn't really active on that account and it was kinda dead and thats why i didn't know for a few days but i was still devastated when i tried to log in and realized it was gone. i hate this stupid law so much you wouldn't even believe, it's hurting so many people. i just hope everyone's okay and no one else's accounts get deleted...
Estoy orgullosa de decir que realmente amo a esta chica, como amo a los de Calpurnia en general. Hice este “edit” con la canción de “I will” de The Beatles porque me recordó a Ayla, además lo hice con la canción completa :3 El video esta en YouTube (link en biografía) pero extrañamente me aparece restringido para México, pero si tú puedes verlo avísame, te lo agradecería mucho si me avisaras, pero por si acaso el video está aquí uwu. Bueno ahí deciden si etiquetar o no ;3 mi celular está sobrecalentado así que lo tengo que dejar un rato pero lo mas seguro es que si valla a etiquetar mañana juju bueno bye. @aylateslermabe@jackandersonofficial@drumboym@finnwolfhardofficial@calpurniaofficial#malcolmcraig#finnwolfhard#calpurnia#jackanderson#aylateslermabe
— hbd jace!! 💛🎈 ↠ omg hey you’re 17 now aren’t you?? 🤪🤪🤪 it’s officially midnight here,, also sorry if the edit isn’t what you expected skdjdj. anyways ! here’s a sappy paragraph lmaooo // happy fuckin birthday. you are honestly one of the greatest people i’ve ever met and i’m so glad that i’m able to consider you one of my friends. you’re super funny and ¡¡soft!! even tho you don’t like to be and i love you so much. also??? you’re super super SUPER talented, even though you don’t think you are, but trust me, you are. we’ve been talking a lot more recently and becoming closer and i’m honestly really glad bc looking back i used to be so afraid of you and i’m glad i got over that lmfao. you really do mean so much to me and i honestly rly hope we continue to talk n stay friends, i literally have no idea what i would do without a jace in my life. also!! i jus wanted to tell you that you deserve so much fucking happiness and i hope you feel it soon bc you deserve to be nothing but happy always. never forget that i’m always here for you, and that i love you v much. again, happy birthday, enjoy 17 <333 | @jaedenwesley@angelateresa#omgpage#edit#omgedit#omgunderrated
❝ I’ll be right by your side ❞ such an underrated friendship that deserves more attention <3 》ac/ib/rm; milevenduh ! // sc & cc; mine《 ⚘ dt; Sophia and only Sophia! uwu <3 ov; stqrry ༄ ⚘ ت ─ video star! [ #omgpage#sadiesinkedit#gatenmatarazzoedit ] 🧸🌻 song: 3005 (remix) by childish gambino