💌”You deserve happiness. And I mean real happiness; true happiness. The kind of happiness that makes your heart fill with warmth. And you deserve to feel what it feels like to be okay. To feel like the world isn’t against you. To feel like you aren’t constantly treading water just to keep from drowning. More than anything, you deserve to be okay. And I know it’s hard to hear this, especially when you are so sad. Especially when you are so far away from loving yourself. But I still want you to know. Because one day, you are going to feel okay again. ⠀⠀ One day you are going to feel happy again. It’s just a matter of time. But for now, remember that you are special. You are special even when you are feeling anxious. You are special even when you are feeling lonely. You are special even when your friends aren’t checking on you to see how you are. You are special even when you wear the same old pajamas two days in a row. You are special even when you spend your entire day at home scrolling aimlessly on your phone wishing for something or someone to make you smile again. And just so you know, you will smile again. You are loved. And you are not alone. Not even in the least bit. You are so special. And one day you will feel special. You will feel okay. You really will. But until then, it’s okay to not do anything today. Or tomorrow. It’s okay to not be productive. It’s okay to not get “enough” done. Because sometimes, the hardest part of life is just getting by. The hardest part of life is just waking up and living through the day. The hardest part of life is just holding on. ⠀⠀ So if you spend today, or the next few days, just trying to survive. it’s okay. This hard time, this anxious time, this troubling time – it won’t last forever. It’s just a season. It’s a harder phase of life. It’s an exhausting time of life. But it will lift. You just have to keep going. ⠀⠀ You deserve happiness, and it will find you. It will just take time." via~ @thoughtcatalog
10 hours ago
💌”When you’re wondering if loving someone was worth it — ask yourself this. If you could go back in time, if you could do it all over again, would you? Would you choose that person, would you choose that hope, knowing that you would also be choosing that hurt? Knowing that at one point in time, you were going to have to survive the loss of them, the ache of missing? Would you still risk for them? Would you still love them? Would you still stay up until 4am with them on the night you met, letting yourself fall? Would you still get on the plane? Would you still forgive, and trust; would you still make the memories, would you still give them a home in your heart? See, if the answer is no, then maybe what you had was not love, maybe it was a lesson. Maybe you can find closure in that. But if your answer is yes, then ah — do not doubt if it was worth it. Do not make it any less beautiful in your mind, do not turn it into something you choose to forget. No, if you would do it all again, if you would still choose just a few more hours, just a few more days, just a few more years, despite the inevitable loss, then you had something most people never find in this lifetime. You had something worth the fight. Don’t ever forget that."
14 hours ago
💌”sending love and good vibes and support to anyone who didn’t receive it today. just because someone didn’t give it to you doesn’t mean you don’t deserve it. you are valued and important.” via~ @feelss._
16 hours ago
💌”Before you kiss someone for the first time, just wait. Take a second to look at them. They are so new, so unfamiliar. Right now you don’t know how they taste, how their hands will press against your skin, how they’ll breathe. You won’t see them like this again. Look at them wanting - the apprehension in their eyes. They don’t know either. In their mind you are uncharted territory. Isn’t that special? Keep it. That’s how you’ll never lose them. Every so often afterwards look at them through these eyes. Don’t lose that wonder. Don’t lose the spark.” via~ @thefragilitylesson
a day ago
💌”you can do this. stop sabotaging yourself and your dreams. there will be risks, there will be stress, but go on and actually pursue what you want to do. you will not regret having tried, all things considered. self-doubt can destroy so much of your life. don’t let it, please.”
a day ago
💌”When love stays, you start to understand why it had to leave in the first place. Why you had to ache, why past love had to dig caverns inside of your heart in order to make room for the person who would end up filling your soul with light. When love stays, clarity cracks within you — you comprehend the hurt, the loss, the lessons the wrong ones etched along your spine. When love stays, you make peace with all that weathered you, because you see just how it pushed you in the direction of growth, how it pushed you in the direction of the right arms, the right heart, the right soul. ⠀⠀ But I know the dark reality of being hurt by the hands that were meant to hold you. I know the fear; for when love stays, at first it is difficult to believe that it has truly chosen you. After all of this time, after all of the damage, something so heavy has suddenly become delicate, has become simple and light. After years of begging, of hoping, of having your needs starved by those who could not give you what you craved, you have found the kind of love that nurtures you. That believes in you. ⠀⠀ And I know, I know — it is difficult when every tender part of who you are has been bruised and let down by the ones who never learned how to love you properly. But you must believe in this love the way it believes in you. You must trust it. ⠀⠀ Because when love stays, the only way to truly experience it in all of its beauty, is to let it wash over you — is to have confidence in it, is to give it all that you are. When love stays, you have to be loyal to it, you have to show up for it, you have to understand that it is going to be by your side, it is going to fight with you — no matter what. You cannot flee from it. You cannot let your past shrink you into the kind of person who walks away from it in order to refrain from being hurt. You have to plant your feet, you have to stand and face it for all that it is, as terrifying as such an unknown can be. You have to believe, that this time, love is different. That this time, love is right." via~ @rainbowsalt
2 days ago
💌”i can’t tell you how many times I miss the way i read when i was young. a new book nearly every day, my eyes flying over the words like i couldn’t take in the stories fast enough for this knowledge-hungry part of me. i was young. i didn’t understand the world well enough to understand the clear line between what was allowed and what wasn’t in reality. of course fairies were in the forest near grandma’s house. of course there were mermaids at the indistinct bottom of the swimming pool. of course there was magic and wonder and mystery everywhere i looked because why shouldn’t there be? flashlights under my pillow and dark circles under my eyes, both from late nights spinning with ink on paper. the librarians knew me by name before i was tall enough to see over the check-out counter. i was once told by a school teacher not to read a book she thought was too hard for me. i didn’t listen. i still love that story, and i hope she understands now. a different teacher asked me about every book i read, and listened intently with a soft smile. i wonder if she knew the longing i do. i get flashbacks of moments in life that aren’t mine. i’ve traveled the world and i’ve created my own. i’ve fallen in love and i’ve experienced heartbreak. i feel an ache in my chest when i remember the name of an old friend. i remember the first time i realized how to match sound to word, and read my very first sentence of a book out loud. i remember beginning that first story and never really reaching the end. i’m still on this adventure. i miss the feeling of falling into worlds without a compass, and immediately knowing the way. that miraculous, extraordinary moment you realize a collection of pages will understand you when you feel no person could. i want to find that feeling again. i will find it again. i will read just as i breathe. constantly. Via ~ @ggodcomplex
2 days ago
💌”If you’re not sad in a relationship then you’re not in the right one.” “What do you mean?” “It's just, if you’re with the right person, if you’re with someone who changes your life, and who enlivens you — you’re not going to be happy every single day. You’re going to be sad, anxious even, that there could ever be a time where you didn’t feel that way. Love is this incredible thing, this intangible feeling that swells within you, it gifts you these crystallizing moments of appreciation and gratitude, these overwhelming oceans that build within your chest, constantly reminding you that you have something to lose. When you’re in love you always have something to lose, and that’s sad. That’s harrowing. That’s why love keeps you up at midnight, that’s why love lives as a lump in your throat sometimes. And I know that people will furrow their brow when they hear me say that. I know that they’ll scrunch their nose and roll their eyes, because people believe that you would never fear losing someone if you were with the right person. People believe that such a worry wouldn’t exist within a confident relationship, but I don’t agree there. See, I think you should always love someone like you are going to lose them. I think you shouldn’t ever get comfortable. You should buy the person you love flowers just because it is Tuesday. You shouldn’t assume that they know you care just because you tell them. You need to show them. You shouldn’t ever stop showing someone that you choose them, that your heart has picked them above all else; that you’re willing to fight, to push, to fall in love with them every single day.” via~ @thoughtcatalog
💌 " While you complained that you were sad I comforted you by saying the world is lucky enough have people like you in it. It made me feel good to be a nice person to you even though you wronged me. It feels good to tell you that I love you, to tell you how much you matter to me in spite of all we went through, to tell you that you're amazing just the way you are, to tell you that you're more than your mistakes. I think if I forgive you and forget everything you ever did to me it won't work in the long run but it works in the moment. And I'm learning to take things moment by moment these days. This is probably the wrong decision I've made. I shouldn't be here to build you up when all you did was break me down. Everyone tells me to cut you off, and here's the secret they're right, I should. But talking to you makes me feel like a nice person, something that ignoring you never could. And maybe if I try hard enough this time you'll fall back in love with me and maybe this time I'll be the one who leaves. So when I'm comforting you and telling you you're more than your mistakes I mean it, I really do. Just because you don't wish the same for me and never appreciate me in return doesn't mean i don't wish I'd never met you. "